In two days I leave for the Camino. I tell people what I am doing and the most frequent question asked is how long have you been planning this? It's been on my bucket list for 20 years, but real logistical consideration was only addressed last year to my doctor before my hip replacement. I wanted to be able to do this and the sooner the better. I didn't actually buy my ticket until a week ago. Preparation included working towards and watching my schedule, commitments, children, and my own head making room for this. It seemed impossible at first that I could take so much time away with such limited resources.
Brierley's guide book has a wonderful quote in it. "Within the crucible that is pilgrimage a remarkable alchemical reaction takes place that burns away the dross we have collected in our lives - so that over time only the purest gold will remain."
It is a good metaphor for life, and death even. In preparing, and not by any conscious design, there was such a palpable sense of letting go. From what was important to others (details, planning) to making sure my pack was not filled with superfluous encumbrances, to my head and heart being freed from worldly cares that were ultimately insignificant compared to the value I placed on the journey. There was prayer and support from friends and professionals, there was never a sense that I would be irresponsible to anything in my going, in fact, quite the opposite, I felt accountable to the higher calling that would ultimately serve me, my faith, and others as to what we sacrifice in life and to what end.
As most journeys, whether physical, professional or relational, they have served as a catalyst for better things, for myself and other people along the way. I feel a sense of privilege and gratitude in being part of the growth and change that ensues in pursuing the 'gold'.
I know it will be challenging at times and I may even be cursing my participation at points where my feet are worn and my body aches, but it is no different than any other valuable task. It involves joy and inspiration and communion with others, but also suffering, sacrifice and individual perseverance where our faith inevitably surfaces in new ways and with a new vision on the world, ourselves and others.
"The Way" is an individual journey. I look at others without ownership or desire to direct their path. Seeking mutual appreciation without expectation or obligation. Cognizant of where we intersect and how each life is utterly unique and extraordinary in its own light. The companionship we offer one another at certain times helps us with our direction and strength while we are trying to find our way, so as not to let the entrapments of the world compromise our souls.
